One of the girls has a scar on her tummy. The conversation went like this......
Me: I wonder what that's from? Do you think she had gastric bypass surgery?
Steph: Maybe she was stabbed. (in a very matter of fact voice)
Hahaha! Okay, sounds awful but sometimes we are just that blunt!
As we watched last night, I got to thinking about how I feel desensitized to this show anymore. I no longer feel the motivation that I used to or even inspired by the contestants. Why? No idea though my heart did BREAK for the little girl who stopped eating & drinking because she didn't want to be fat like her Mom :( I can NEVER allow that to be me. Never.
As for me, I'm doing pretty well. I had a meltdown last week (thanks in part to PMS moodiness) & ranted to a friend who gave me a fabulous reality check. She told me to stop telling her what I was doing right & tell her what I can do to make things different (or better if you will.) Just what I needed to hear even in my whiny state of mind! Then it happened...the scale drop that has eluded me for almost a full month. I maintained but wanted more.
What did I do? I made the changes she suggested & realized that I was morphing back into a mindset that I've been working hard to escape. Whew. Close call but I think I'm better (not totally but getting there...)
And with that, continued scale drop since Saturday. I'll take it.
(picture from Universal Studios Orlando)
4 weeks to vacation (this has NOTHING to do with the scale but needed to just remind you all that FEAR awaits me....mwahahahaha!)
Hope you are all well!
